On my own.

I know there are lots of strong women out there whose husbands travel for work often.  These women amaze me.  Fortunately for me, my husband does not have to travel for work more than once or twice a year.  When he does, he is gone for 5-6 days at the most and then he returns home to us.

I used to really stress out about him leaving.  Justin and I co-parent and share all the responsibilities, so when he is gone, it adds a lot to my work load with the kids.  Last week was a really rough week for me, I was PMS'ing, Piper wasn't feeling well, so she wasn't sleeping well at night, and I was just stressed out.  Justin was apprehensive about flying to Atlanta this week.  I think he feared for my emotional well being.  Of course, he had to go anyways and leave his unstable wife behind to fend for herself with the kids :-)

This week, while it would have been nice to get a break (especially since I've been sick), has gone really smooth.  Children (and mom) were fed, bathed, and where they needed to be- on time!  The dishes have been done, the garbage has been taken out, and homework has been completed.  I've survived.  I've come out alive.  And, I'm not even stressed.  I've missed Justin, don't get me wrong.  He is my best friend, my partner, my lover, but I've realized that I'm stronger and better at this parenting thing than I give myself credit for. It feels nice to know, for myself, that I'm capable. I guess it is time to stop doubting myself.